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Self-medicating is the term used to describe our use of addictive substances and behaviors to relieve our mental and emotional pain. Rather than actual medication or natural remedies that would help us to heal, we’re relying on toxic substances and harmful behaviors that mask the pain. We are numbing ourselves from the thoughts and feelings we’re afraid to face. We’re distracting ourselves from the healing work we need to do to move past the fears and wounds keeping us stuck in our lives. We become so dependent on our drugs of choice that we start to feel as though we can’t live without them. We use avoidance, denial and escapism to cover up just how problematic our addictions have become. Our main goal becomes to perpetuate our addictions at all costs. We prioritize our drug of choice over everything else in our lives – our well-being, our sense of self, our obligations, even our loved ones. We are continually causing ourselves more pain and then self-medicating to try to cope with the multiple layers of issues that have accumulated.
One reason why self-medicating is so problematic is because when we’re avoiding the severity of our issues, we’re actually prolonging our distress. We’re never facing our core issues and getting to the root of why we’re in pain. Our wounds go unhealed, and our problems fester, getting gradually worse over time. Before we know it, we’ve become totally overwhelmed by our issues. Our addictions overpower us. We lose sight of what’s important in life, and our drugs of choice become our obsession. We’re not living healthy, fulfilling lives. We become increasingly sad and afraid. We lose hope and give up on ourselves. All the while, we’re still self-medicating to avoid these difficult truths.
Another reason self-medicating is so harmful is that we’re often covering up acute mental illnesses. Our depression, anxiety and other mental health issues often go undiagnosed and untreated, putting us in danger of harming ourselves or other people. We’re not mentally or emotionally stable or secure, and our lives can begin to unravel as a result. Our health deteriorates. We experience breakdowns, drastic depressive episodes and worsening health outcomes. We can suffer from panic attacks and delusions. We can struggle with suicidal thoughts and compulsive urges to end our suffering through self-harm or even death.
Self-medicating keeps us from healing on a fundamental level. The more we self-medicate and numb ourselves from our pain, the more we prolong our suffering and postpone the very important recovery work we need to do in order to be happy and healthy.
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